fourth of july. 2008.

2005-conor and I, in dayton with my family, me, miserable. Its hard to think its been 3 years.

2006-andys parents hotel, watching fireworks and drinking cocktails...then on the actual day, up at moms again, lighting fireworks, happy for the most part. I'm losing track of dates.

2007-taylor and I doing something, probably drunk at some show somewhere. Quite possibly still at kristins house, or maybe at our new house. Those were my happiest days.

2008-heading to dads house, I'm glad to get to spend the holiday with them, for once in over 10 years. He keeps lots of fireworks on hand, so hopefully it doesn't rain.

things are getting kinda weird right now.

its odd.

i try to ruin a lot of things

and succeed 99% of the time.

once upon a time...

we were kids...

those were the days.

when the wind is blowing,

I know you're there...

.

people are such fucking babies.

ugh.

what the hell is wrong with you all??????????

so my life is good...

i really have everything i could want...

except someone to keep me company.

people disappoint me...i disappoint myself...i cant trust anyone...i cant trust myself...

the only thing i know is what im here for. nothing else.

so disappointed.

seriously...

what were you thinking...

the park.

Zeke was running around, I laid on the bench just pretending I was far, far away from the city, up in mountains, and I drifted to sleep.

this week has been very busy, and not very fun.

i have basically been running like a chicken with my head cut off.

tomorrows the last day i have to stress, and tomorrow night should be fun, going to long island with a bunch of kids from school, to hang out, explore the gallows, and cause general ruckus.

anyway, im tired, have not been getting much sleep, and feel more alone than i ever have in my life.

im really not complaining, life is easy, and great. just lonely sometimes.

.

maybe ive changed.

adventure! fantastic adventure!

i did not take these pictures, however they all have something to do with the amazing day i had yesterday.

thanks!

Everyone has skeletons in their closet...

what are yours?

today has not been a great day.

its progressively gotten worse as a matter of fact. i need to get out of the house. staring at the walls is making me lose my mind.

one can only hope for a better one tomorrow, who knows if that will happen.

something to do with my hands.

QUIT. YOU'RE NOT COOL.

Mak this has nothing to do with you so just know that.

but for the rest of you, quit trying so hard, your so fake and lost, trying so hard to fit in but its not working.

memo: i dont know who told you bike punk was in, but its not. grow up. i would tell you to go take a shower but we all know you shower daily so just drop the act.

in case you were wondering,

i just fell out of my chair, right on my ass.

:)

dark and rainy...

wanted to go exploring this afternoon. been looking at some sites about local hauntings, and other interesting subject matter.

i want to make something. i need to gather my thoughts.

Better than a thousand hollow words is one word that brings peace. -Buddha

Rally in the square.

china town

to new beginnings?

new york city.